Shattered

She just held on... Even when I tried to let go... She just held on. Thoughts of how abandoned and confused I have felt, how utterly depressed I have been, and how longing I was for someone to just hold me flooded over. I cried. And this time it was real. As His Spirit washed over, for the first time in my life I felt comfort from another other than the Lord. Real comfort. The fear I have so long been chasing, the strength of my own I relied on, the weakness of my heart all faded for that moment. Healing... I am beginning to know what it feels like.

And I never want to go back.

I know it is time to move on in my life. God is breaking the chains I have held onto so long. The dark road I have traveled is no longer ahead of me. He holds my hand and leads me where I never dreamed I would go.

So I commit myself to Him. I commit myself to His people. To serve and to love not with all that I am, but all that He is. I will not run away this time, I will not fail in this future because He is becoming everything I am.

Alive Again by Matt Maher

I woke up in darkness
surrounded by silence
oh where, where have I gone?

I woke to reality
losing its grip on me
oh where, where have I gone?

Cause I can see the light
before I see the sunrise

You called and you shouted
broke through my deafness
now I'm breathing in
and breathing out
I'm alive again

You shattered my darkness
washed away my blindness
now I'm breathing in
and breathing out
I'm alive again

Late have I loved you,
you waited for me,
I searched for you
what took me so long?

I was looking outside
as if love would ever want to hide
I'm finding I was wrong

Cause I can feel the wind
before it hits my skin

Cause I want you
Yes, I want you,
I need you
And Ill do whatever I have to
Just to get through
cause I love you
and I love you