The Apology And The Plan

Bitterness. It is my struggle. It is one rooted in fear and absolute, rigid, lack of grace. Before it was just my struggle. But this faith... the one God is revealing, He says this struggle has no place. Before I would have questioned and tried with all my will to stop my thoughts. Instead, because of the incredible love and saving grace of Jesus and the power of the Holy Spirit, this self-indulgence will be fed no longer. By Him I am saved, by Him I have faith, and by Him I am healed. No longer do I have to walk in the ways of myself! I can hardly sit still thinking about it. Talking about it, well, laughter is all that can suffice.

Excitedly I walk as God points me to the future. In fact, each day, it becomes more difficult to contain myself. Praise God for being God!

Then comes the apology, the seeking out of forgiveness for the bitterness that was harbored. Some forgive... and some will not, but just the same God's grace is overflowing. And God's everlasting handiwork becomes more obvious. I see it when I look into the eyes of another believer and I know that they know and they know that I know and God is present and His Spirit overflows and somehow it becomes apparent that somehow you were prepared for that moment even when you have never even heard their name.

I have faith in God's plan. By Jesus Christ I am saved and made whole. Despite all of the sorrow and pain and fear in this world, my place of peace and rest will remain the Lord forever and ever. As he breaks me to become more like Him, the more His will shall be done in my life.

Thank you God for all you have done! Glory and honor and power and praise be to you forever and ever amen!