Post- Valentine's Day

It's Beautiful by Eleventyseven

I wish that You would tell me how
You know me well and want to be together
Fallen short and faded out
You keep making gardens in this desert
Despite the grace that I dismiss
Forgiveness was the catalyst
To penetrate my heart with what is true

It's Beautiful
You could turn mistakes to miracles
The way that You still love me after all
It's Beautiful

Redeem the years I've thrown away
I'm ready to make good on what I've wasted
I'm asking You to shape my heart
I want to be Your work of art
Cause when You change me
And make me more like You

It's Beautiful
You could turn mistakes to miracles
The way that You still love me after all
It's Beautiful

So help me God forbid
And never take for granted
This endless gift You give

It's Beautiful
You could turn mistakes to miracles
The way that You still love me after all
It's Beautiful
It's Beautiful

It's Beautiful

I wish that You would tell me how
You know me well and want to be together

Listening to this now after almost 2 years blows me away. God is so incredible. For the first time ever I am finding myself truly soft-hearted. This fear that has gripped me so long is fading away. All this time I have said I was looking, that I needed a persistent one to come along, that he had to reach out to me. Funny thing is, it happened. And guess what I did? I pushed him away. If you don't let anyone in you don't get hurt. That is how I rolled... with out even knowing it. Now my vision is a little different. If I want someone to put their heart on the line for me, I must be willing to do the same myself.

This true love, the kind that is an example of Christ's love for the church, the kind that lays everything on the line, I want it. And I am willing to face my greatest fears for it. So I am a little clumsy and a little relationship stupid (okay a lot relationship stupid). But I want to be better for you, whoever you are.

This Post-Valentine's Day God allowed me to lay more down for you. My heart belongs to you and you alone.

And I think for the first time I am ready to give it.