Sunday, March 13, 2011

And I am reminded. Your unending love, your infinite truth, your ocean of grace... they all wait in front of me. For so long I have waited for the one to come and wrap his arms around me, take my hand and show me how to escape this fear and this bitterness. For so long it seemed I was sinking in this thick ending, slowly fading into the dark, unaware, unwilling, asleep. All along You were there. You were grasping onto to the same frail, bleeding heart I so desperately protected. When my legs collapsed beneath me I did not fall because You held me tightly. In the moments death surely awaited to snatch my life away, You brought light. My hand... You held it all the way.

And I fought. I tore. I ran. But now Your spirit has opened my eyes and I remember. The first love that plunged into my flesh, that dissipated my infection, that tore away my blindness... It is still here. It is more healing than I ever imagined.

So I forget myself and I no longer want the healing for myself, but for you. I pray the fear in your eyes would be cast away into nothingness, never to return. As I watch your heart crushed and beaten by the depressions of this life, I pray God will raise it again. He will wrap His arms around you. He will take away your brokenness. He will hold onto you even when you refuse to hold onto Him. I want to offer you the same... but know you may never see.

I am okay with that... because my Healer has set me free.

Slow Your Breath Down by Future of Forestry

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